Nitish's Blog

Here am i again standing at the point of re-initiating something It just feels something new is been coming in It just feel life is gonna have some new plan for me too With every smile there is a less worry flowing in So i just am sitting down with a pen and paper Just like old days been a solution maker Just those days of being a traditional keeper I know maybe things wont gi through I do know maybe non would walking too But standing at this point with a hope is something new I have been down i have been fighting this feeling for long now So am gonna walk this distance irrespective of what would happen Am gonna take this chance and be the new person. -Nitish

It's been a long time since i have been writing this time It's been a long since i had ever thought to bring this down Those memories of us is all that's tearing me apart I just keep wishing i never had those nightmare thoughts I keep thinking of it with ever blink of an eye It kills a part of me making me guilty to be living being to be I lost your touch that early morning And i still keep blaming myself for loosing on to you I made a promise with you holding on the last breath And everyday i strive harder to keep onto it I have lost a lot of people in this journey i been I have lost a part of me who once used to live life to be I keep wishing every time for you to stand next to me It feels weird the way people have their eyes on me I been strong i been bold standing those odds judging me all I just keep my eyes low to avoid anyone know what i been through I made a promise to hold things tight while you were gonna leave me right I am still paying for thin...

Its been long since i am trying to run away from this Times been hard and always been testing me I could barely even stand and face them alone Even i do break as even i am a human who loves home I stand in the dark to be hidden from those around I observe and learn my ways to stay in narrows Its all about the grief that i hold Its all that grief that makes me stand alone I have been facing those sleepless night I have been on my knees hoping things to be right I never shead a tear on my face But deep within i am always been misplaced Look at the sky i often wonder Maybe am not alone who's been facing those thunder With eyes wide open and trying to prove myself I am just struggling to survive my part of story -Nitish

It's been long since i have this part of me It's been a time since i was lost in thought like this So things are simple as that and thoughts are complicated moreover in that It's an half orphan kid of am metro town Living a life of partially dead within ij search of love around the world His life is just a journey to explore the love for him around the town Story is crazy and he never had any girl going for him easy Times have always been tough putting him to test And be honest its always been hard for him to survive till last And now he calls himself as an orphan kid of a metro town. -Nitish

Dear Dad, I hope you are doing well, just don't ask me how am i doing but honestly i would not answer it in short. Well dad i miss you a lot words won't say it how much i miss being with you. By the way dad you know i bought a house, well its on loan but still i did it by myself our house again just one issue its in Ahmedabad and i know you hate this place but its our secret. Well its better i write it big for you so we start from 7 DEC 2007 8:30am yeah i know you walked away but still you are my best friend. So honestly i am fortunate i survived this long or trust me your wife still scolds me a lot and that's not fair as i need be silent just because you hate back answers. So things have been worse critically worse and drastically out of control but anyways i always stepped out of it alive, so year one was torture year two became a habit and from year three you can predict how it went to and last year just bounds were broken because i bought something too quick. Somet...

Today is a day when i see things upside down I do remember every friend of every town Some were my buddies some were just a sound But trust me once i am always around Things did mess and i might have been lost But things made us friends and brought us closer I learned to live walking by side to you I shadowed your presence to fill my absence I wrote some stories which turned in memories Some just fade away while some became a history I know words never can fill the moments of friendship That's the reason i am writing this as a token to friendship Lines were too few but you just never knew I was right around when you made the sound I call you the magic wand to have a stand Just stand that day when i am not around My presence will fade maybe some day But trust me even then i would be around anyway. -Nitish