Nitish's Blog

Today we are here standing right next to each other It's just some world where we are virtually together I could just have a feeling of looking right in your eye I can feel your breath and the heartbeat i won't deny It's been a while since i have been so into you It's always been you who has been holding me on to I have been breaking down now and then true And you been fighting for making me what i should do You have been asking me question on something breaking me too And i always been turning down ass i dunno what i should do Days do come and i scared just to loose you I just feel alive when i have a look right at you You might never know what you mean for me too A day would come when you would leave me too Friends and family are something i would never have for me I might go alone when you are gone too The memories of us is something i never wanna let go The memories of you makes me what i should do Looking at your smile i believe to start my day ...

The pain and grief it's all been hidden beneath I used to be a small town boy with bigger dreams I have been betrayed i have been lost since i was born I have been pretty dead beneath since i lost my dad It often makes me think what i lost when he was gone I often think of myself to be an orphan without his presence The way people look at me i wonder how it could be I have learned i have grown i have been something unknown I can smile and hide everything in that I can look right in your eye and learn what you missed to speak I learned my ways of believes and dis beliefs I learned my way of growing into someone i once i used to be I have been tired standing in front of all and always been told guilty I am tired been strong beyond my age what i should be With every day passing by the grief takes a part of me With every moment i live here by someone close to me cuts me My dreams are pretty simple to be a man who i always want to be All i been searching is some love a...

Sitting here right below this dark night sky I am gonna writing something today what i always deny I learned my way from her when it was too late for me It just felt like i was an option to her when she needed me I kept on saying and expressing my love for her But all i got was pain and loneliness in return I cried every night just because i knew i was not the one for her I was sad and broken because someone else was winning her attention I tried really hard and gave up whatever i could But all she said was we are just friend and i need to accept it too I smiled at her face and she believed that moment of me It was just her who didn't realise what she was meant for me true Everyone kept on saying me to walk away for a while I tried being hard i tried being harah but at the end it was heart which tore me apart I smiled looking at her while we exchanged our paths But she never knew i was in a war between my brain and heart I kept surviving on a hope that one day she w...

I know i have been always too silent and emotionally crazy I know i ain't as good and as happy as you want me to But things keeps changing and life just keeps tripping My lifes just enslaved to the people i never wanna stick anyway I do live in a world of people wearing mask this days Life was so simple when we were kind back those days Heart was ao pure people were so calm Things were so simple and never has this  hard days I have been dreaming here now today of next to me I know you said it everytime about you and me being impossible I know i should never ask you that one thing as that messes us away But believe me when i wanna stay next to you Believe my words when i would say i just wanna hold on to you It's just you who is been keeping me as one I would be broken and lost the day you walk away And i would just hear them saying i was idiot to loose you that day And i would be smilling out there maybe because you always make best choice for you i know it eve...

It all started with that thing which took my heart beat Words can't make for it what i had been felt for her It just took my breath away the moment i saw her walking by way My eyes just never had a look out from her while passing away At a sudden she just was lost of my sight while i was looking her way The smile she had on her face would be precious of way I looked her her everyday and she just had her smile right at place I never had guts to walk that distance and loose her telling my way I learned it with time maybe i was meant to be lone I learned with that passing wind that we don't things we love everyday For a moment i thought it to be an end of it some day I looked at her that moment and thought of her to be my special day It's been pretty long i have been seeing her everyday At time she just passes by and doesn't smile while walking away I still do feel scared to call her as queen of my dreams now-a-days I just don't feel right when you are ...

Here are the lines sharing an honor to life Lines are for those who stand to decisions of life We all face problems in life day in and out We often have those times with sleepless night Just drop everything off you shoulder when it's tight Ignore everyone who is cutting you off their life As it's all about how you made it till here As it's all about how you survived your part of life I learned it my way that no one ever inspired me in life I have fallen i have made a rise and stayed up there for long I have broken and been firm to my principles too All that i learned is to be like a warrior of my life Take stand for those whom you should always stand to Back those people up whom you think of worth true Look straight into their eyes and fall in love true Shrug of those regrets and pain you went through Put a smile on your face as that's best that suites you Learn one thing no ones gonna stick forever with you People are gonna walk in and out in this jo...

Am gonna write few lines just describing it for you I am just gonna write this all for you and just for you So it all happened this way like it was a fairy tale It was just of those things with a boy and girl thing Things just happened dunno how and i had a fall for you So here i am standing right where i should be I am right there looking straight at you Every time you go sad or mute it makes me worry of you every time you create a distance from me it hurts me too cutting down to those scars breaking down to that pain Looking at your smile is what drains all my pain away I might have told you million time but am gonna saying still too I might have told you every time you looking beautiful and gorgeous too I never have been tired of looking at you I never been among those who would let you alone too Every time you would feel parted i would try my best for you I just keep telling myself it's how i can still be friend with you. -Nitish

Here are few lines just for the memory of you I knew something that i won't end so soon I saw you every moment passing through I was there watching you succeed too There's joy for every moment you smiled in it There's no way either out here i be there I looked at you every passing day wishing be there It felt like a dream when we spoke with no fear It feels like it was just a dream when you were here I believe in miracles which often happen here I believe you to be an guardian angel to help me stand I broke million times but you made me hold on there I fell every time and your face made me stand again there It often happens that i do go sad It often happens i have thoughts of loosing you there Some things end as dreams while some end here I keep wishing to be there right next to you dear I might not say my feelings or show it there But what makes us hold is that we are here Time might change and tide would flow All i would say is i would stay there I w...

I am here just holding on to my worst fear I have lost you long i have gone unknown I am hurt more than i had a thought People kept on telling me of it and just ignore it there I always had known that it was gonna happen there I lost a smile I had those painful tears I saw your face which didn't even had a scar You never knew me well you never knew me then I was that idiot who thought you were there I always had a thought you would hold me when i fall I had a pain everyday when i had my past haunting me away I tried million times but it never came out for you I tried every time and you ignored my problems away And than there we are here which we call as today I learned it lately but it's never late to be I learned that you were not worth those timing I learned you were not worth that pain I should have left you back there as lonely You never know how it feels to be lost and lonely You would never know what's my part of story I saw you right there every ...

Things are good things are bad no one wants them to be sad You wish of them to be next to you but it won't happen easily too I saw it first i saw it again it was something that made it drain Pain was high while things were low i would admit was scaring too You never saw me like for now you do as you know how it feels about you I feel hurt i feel pain but i won't show it every again The scares were visible to people around i faked my smile with reasons known Some saw me straight some saw me crooked while i was trying to figure you to I learned my days in a different way i never had options like others everyday I lived my life i sailed it through no one every cared like they do for you I stood right there looking at you with a smile on face just a moment or two You walked that path and crossed me too but nothing every happened between two Story was sweet and simple too but it was about how we believed it to be true I looked at you right from far away sitting at my p...

Things feel bad things feel wrong I am trying to figure out whats going on It's tearing me apart the way it starts It's killing me inside while i wait to have your sight I knew things won't be the way i wish to be I kept trying till the moment it broke my heart I kept falling for you knowing it was my fault You kept on telling me don't ever loose my heart I stood by you while you needed me there I looked at sky when it was just dark there I kept wishing for you knowing it won't happen true It just broke me apart since this day start I saw with people and was jealous of them too They always had your attention which i never had true I kept on living on a hope things would change someday too But it just tore me apart since it was meant to I still look at your face with a hope it might turn someday I still wait for the smile which might make my day I have always lost things in past and been dead I am just living on a hope of being part of you one day...

It all began in a classic way with a girl and boy thing way He saw her in a room of people one day And he had a fall for her the moment that day He kept it in heart he kept his feelings low While someone walked to her and had her stole He smiled looking at her still everyday She just thought him to be a friend one way They often met and talked someday He never had guts to share his feelings anyway A day came by and she was not there that day He took his phone and texted her right away The spoke to each other for a while that day He had those feelings been popping up that day He was scared to loose her by telling her any day He was scared to show his feeling for her everyday Days passed by and they happened to be close He took some courage and told her the truth The had a moment of silence and she smiled that day Guy just had a cut knowing he was dumped that day He knew things were so and never gonna be okay So he kept being silent and just being a friendly way Sti...

It was just a common day until i saw you today The way you smiled just took my breath away I saw you walking just pass my way I was looking right at you while you were passing by there too It was just one of those moments which happened to I saw at your face where there was just a smile at place A smile perfect to make someone have a beautiful day With every blink on my screen i wished it to be a message from you With every second passing by i was waiting just to have a glance of you You are the first though of mine while i walked into through that door Until the way i fall asleep it's just a thought of your to be People often make fun of me while seeing me looking at you to be With every moment you pass by it's just a smile that fly It sounds like a crazy but i just wished the one for you to be With every moment known to me i just know it stays a dream for me I might not be the one whom you wished to be I would never have you by my side the way i keep wishing ...

I heard you once i heard you twice the more i heard i grew wise Lines were simple and words were true non ever noticed it about you I saw it straight in you eyes and just had an smile As i knew you were gonna say it till the day i would deny The words were like this as it was what i heard to be You grew and kept growing till the day you end up being a sibling You heard everything we told and always been a good thing Your smile made proud of what we teach you Your tears made us weak with nights been sleepless too I heard your wishes before the words came through I heard your giggles with a tears in my eye that's true You would know the joy of my life when you would stand too And someday you gonna be my place and same too As the words keep going through my mind every time Memory of yours refreshes my soul to be The look in your eye in the picture of you I just feel weak when i terribly miss you But the words made me what i stand today true I made me survive every n...

It's been a while since i have had this thoughts for you It's been distance even always being in font of you It all started with the day when i first saw you In a class full of people around and you being right in front of them true I had a moment for you when you stood sharing story that was true I just had a fall with a smile with a thoughts of you I knew from that moment that there was nothing meant for me too It was simple as always i won't be able to have you fall for me too I took my courage and shared it all to you and with a beauty of a smile i just heard you I remember every word every thought that i used to have too But as it happens things just changed too I saw him by you and was happy too I learned my lesson to let go of you I always have been so and would keeping learning too And i won't my humanity down for anything ever too But still the look of your eye and smile on your face Amazes me how you became a part of me I still try hard to li...