Nitish's Blog

I been thinking to write this thing down but never had words of matching sound So here i am just laying down to the floor just like dayd fron childhood too old It was just like other's being a fabulous kid playing most of time and enjoying its way So i choose to smile while i was left away i choose to hold my tears tearing a part away Looking at that night sky i wonder often what would my dad say if he was here today I am often been asked whats been lucky and special in life at last My answer remains unchanged since i lost my best part my mate Having the blessing of parents by our side always makes a difference It always makes us comfortable and secured to have sleep at end of the day atlast I been having this nightmares since i lost my best way I been scared of people more than used to be someday I can look at your eye and confess every part that i have lived I can guide you to your best part even its of no gain for me So i often write down my feelings and thoughts th...

Here i write some line for the one whom i would wish to be with right I would wish to see her smile while i wakeup every time I would love to make up to her when is tired and hates being around I would walk those extra miles just if ut ever made her smile But i won't let her down just for the moment i want her as clown I would make her feel special in every way i can I would hold her hand and always takena stand She would mean a world for me maybe someday And i would do all of it just because i wished same from someone someday I have known the pain of standing lonely in the dark I have known those sleepless night of nightmares apart Its all upto us what we make at the best of us Its always upto us what we do to make someone happy at last She can giveup all her dreams just to help you achieve your goals We can pass her back some love and care for what she's been doing out there. - Nitish

It's been so long i have never been so strong It's been too long i haven't written anything for you mom She wakes up early just so we could make things on time She give's up her wishes so we could fulfill all of ours She took the pain of staying awake all night when we were sick She stays right there when we need her by our sides She raised me from being a kid to a man with honor She helped me nourish my thoughts and made me stronger There's always something special about my mom She's been too special as she is my first best friend I have cried i have shouter right on her face and she never doubted I have been worst i have been best just when she was standing next I might have been silent in front of her but she is all i always have So every now and then when i get a chance i go and stay right by her It's been while since i seen her smile but she is best in a while She's been special mom to me as she made me a man meant to be So i call h...

All i have now is nothing left to say Words left few when i look at you Its just what i been waiting for you But i know i am not gonna end with you All i am is just a friend for you So i though to make my mind for you Maybe its time i should give up too I been trying, trying harder just for you there A day seems long when you ain't around A moment didn't pass without you being along All i hold you is right in my heart Even though its tearing me apart All i learned is to be good from you All i listened to was the best of you Moments passed and memories just fell I looked back around and you had your own So i sat down right there took a pause breath in there All i heard is from people all around They often keep asking when i would bow down All i have is nothing left to say All i have is a lonely way -Nitish

Lets write some line's for a broken heart Lets write some lines for a life's torn apart I was just a simple guy neither cared nor deny Life was pleasant life was good better instead than it could I used to smile from the heart instead Now it's like lost all in me I walk by her just to see her face I look for a reason to listen her everyday But all she knows is am bad maybe All she thinks i ain't good enough to be Day's have flown night have passed But am waiting for a moment when she would look once I ain't as good as those cool around her too But all i know i am best of what i could do I have lost myself all in her But all i still care is all good for her I keep these distance because it's all she asks after I just keep breaking it apart as it's all that's left after. -Nitish

Its so simple its so hard its complicated than anyones thought It messes your mind it messes your souls just at times unknown Its something that changes all about you without letting you knew No ever knows how they change all that matters is why they change It makes us stand closer it tears us apart All we know is its just a human lifes part No one can judge no one can predict what they would do at what instinct So i though to write few lines on the complicacy and simplcity of them They made a lot mess in peoples lifes around Some stood firm while some were just dorwn It pulls you harder to the deepest darkest part of you It makes you someone whom you would never knew It helps you rise it makes you fall but they are always standing tall They can make people judge you in moments they spent They can turn you hero or a laughing clow All we know is they never been bribed never been thrown And thats how they are been called feelings of unknown. -Nitish

I heard it once i heard it twice it was mever good to be nice I had scars from past on me people barely had trust in me I learned it lately i learned it hard it was tough for me to travel far I walked those roads lonely in dark but never had anyone appreciating that part I had fear i felt that pain which made me go feelings drain I looked for you every now and them but you were lost with someone than I had a faith all in me maybe someday you would stand next to me I had little faith maybe you would turn knowing about me how i learned So here i am standing in the rain facing storm once again But all i have learned is to be human again Wishing for everyone's best even if i lost again I have learned from my journey to be good in me I have learned so far to face everything being bold to be So here i am wishing all good for you while you push me away from you I might have lost my smile and learned to be fake But all i have know is i can't ignore you or hate So i walk...

Its just a jumble of words in a structure unheard Its just a frame of pictures which are left uncaptured So here are my feelings which are always left unheard So i choose to write them down for you maybe you would read once here I started to fall for you the moment we talked I do try to be best of what i could do when you called Every time when we speak its just something unique Every word that you told me means a world for me So all i do is stand right out there looking at you from no where I approached you with everything i had in me You told me once to go ahead and have guts to ask for be with me Momemts passed and time just flew away And than came a day when you told me to stay away It dis hurt me badly but i had feelings other way So i standed still till you were there in front of me one day I do miss looking at you and seeing you smile But trust me i did learn to kill a part of me for people i once cared I always been not good as other guys to show whats in me I...

So here its back again far away from stormy rain I been hiding i been running down in there every now and than So i once sat down there and listened to people whom i love to be I listened to them till i had lost all the hope i had in me So i stepped off all my goals all my dreams to take my leap I made lot of mistakes and i did break down too But here i am now with a newer version meant to No one every learned whats going in me as i bluffed pain with smile in it It ain't that easy to know what and how i have survived till here to be But its even tougher for people to loose their faith in me So i stand firm holding every breath that puts faith in me I stand tight amd never let them face alone to be I know i would never have someone to hold me so tight All i wonder is would there be anyone other than my mom fear loose me right I might go high i would go down but i know my ways of climbing town Leaving that pen and paper away am typing this in a digital way Lessons i l...

I often been thinking to write a part of me I often been thinking her to scream out my story It all began like a story which had all beauty in it It all began with a parent having a small kid I learned to walk with a tears and smile on my parents face I spoke my first word and they were pleased for that to be Days and nights were hard for them when i used to be sick Time passed like a wind and just it made me grow young With every moment we cherished there was a beautiful memory And having a little brother was adding a beautiful peace to it Right there when i saw my mom and dad at peace looking at him to be Days were just so peaceful playing around our place to be Those memories which we cherished and made pictures to be So it was just gonna be a memory sooner or later to be Things just changed like a blink of an eye And all i saw was tears and people crying around me All i could see is my father laying down there I might have never been so strong but i survived that ...

Here are few lines just from the dream i had one night Things were really scarey and words might be little tricky It all started like this with a girl whom i often miss It all started with her smile which i thought to be my world Love and care is what i learned while i was around her She made me something what people around me were wishing for Every moment i have been around her flashes like a dream this days I still wait for her one smile her one word which could hold me on So i am writing it down all in me what i never would say it to be I been falling i been tearing myself all apart I been walking this distance while she is looking around for something I would be waiting for that miracle what i been listening She knows me so well that she is good at leaving me alone She is so much known to me that she can fake all to me I can't tell her anyway what's going all in me So here is am in this dark night writing down this lines Writing my feelings for her once use...

Once there i had a dream to make my name a fame I just had that feeling to make things different way I have seen the broken skies i have the way inside I have been through the darkness more than a time I stand right there still where the word of hope starts I stand at a place where it makes me what i stand in race I might never win i might never quit but all i do is what i make My fame is my earnings which i carry with all pride My journey of this life is all enough to describe I walk that distance where i am unaware of consequence I walk down that street where theres nothing beneath I look right in your eyes and can make you believe a lie I can look straight to your eye and narrate a story of life time. - Nitish

It's always going to be a dream what i always believed It's going to be a beautiful memory of you in me I won't let anyone hurt you when i am around I can give up things just like crazy when it comes to you I walked that distance and turned around for you I stood right there alone hoping all for you A day came by and you just walked pass me And all i was doing was standing there looking at you I know i was never so special ever for you But i always had a hope that has torn me apart I have been broken all inside just because you left me I have been shattered like a glass hurting me With every pain that is killing me i still would wish good for you Not just because its you but all for that one moment when i choose to stand by you. -Nitish

Lets write some lines just for the beauty of our life It was a while ago when i first had you in my sight It was just that monent when your smile made me fall Days passed away and months flew by and here we are in mid sky I always kept on telling you what i always feel for you But i always got low attention when i need you most here I have been down broken in pieces and shattered across I have no one standing by my side to let me in here It just passes a wave of pain and hardship to tear me apart But my smile is all i have gained to hide whats been inside Day by day i am learning my way of being lost in love oneday It's been always that monent when i had you right in front of me All i wonder this days is why it offen happens to me Every person i cared has already left me out here Every one that i know is been wondering howni survive here With every time i close my eye i see your picture to calm me down Every dream that i been dreaming to see you standing by my side ...

It's been a pretty long time with all this silence being It's been so quite as we speak nothing since time being Word's are all that i wanna say out loud all to you Looking at your smile it's all that brings me to peace I was just broken and shattered but you made me walk up It's all about you who has been making me be a good in me You been the reason for me being so living so far But lately you been distant and silent because of reasons untold I have been looking at that face hiding the pain and fear in it I been around looking right at you just for that one reason we being through I been looking at you just to find one reason to be by side of you I know you won't ever look at me the way i look at you I know the hope that makes me stand is the one i would fear someday But it's all about you that smile that blush and those eyes that makes all of you Word's are the only medium i can something to you As you know i just go mute while i am st...

Its just another day with all that flahbacks scaring me through Its just one another moment making me regret every minute true I have been down before i have been lost and broken in all So here i am writing this lines which might help me to find I always had a smllaer wish, a wish to hold someone indeed With every person i did let in who torn me apart and left me lonely I wish to hold her and tell her everything that i have been suffering I wish to stand out right there just like everyone happy indeed I wish to lay down in her lap while the world sees me as a stronger man I wish to tell her every moment i feel so she never walks out World is just a smaller place you never know who's in rat race Feelings keep on making us true breaking down and groom us too Just a look in a eye can make you who what people been through Just a smile on a face is enough though while you have a storm to face With every tear and a sleepless night i learn to be cold as dead With every mome...

Lets write some lines for that someone special in life Lets make them know what the mean for us everytime Its not just about their smile or seeing them happy Its about letting things go even those backstage gossips Stories that made through were never easy to say Stories that lived through were hard enough to be Its about faith and love we hold for someone that make us true Looking at that special one brings peace in us too Its just their one world and we bring the world down to their knee Its just their scar which could burn down a town to be Every tear every sorrow of their is all we want to be fixed indeed Its about loving that one person who you want to be Love is not about always being together Love is simply not just about holding their hand forever There are stories that made them as a history There are those stories which just flew by making people mystery No one would every know us or ever our part of story Because all it started as being a good friend ended a...

All we have now is nothing anymore around me left to loose All i know is i got loose cut when i was made to choose I would learn to stand up again while days would be hard again All i want is to be right next to you just like him once i should too All that fire inside of me i burning something once i used to be With every smile on my face there's something more hide beneath in there You would never know the best side of me just because i was not meant to be One day i would stand right there maybe looking you walk your way maybe I thought we were friends again but never knew until he came back in game Life's so crazy, it's make me just dizzy all i know is i wish i could be All i wish is to be greedy just like out there being selfish to be A smile in face while tear in eye is never a person would see me by I can hold on storm right inside me while people were around the day it should be Days just turned into nightmares for me leaving me sleepless aga...

Here i am just right below the dark night sky watching those city lights With every beeping sound of my phone i wish its a text from you With every line i write its just a dream of me been falling down here to be With every word of this is telling its own story in their own way to be So i often get questioned why i never loose my temper on any of you So here i stand on a point of immense confusion I stand with everything i have right in front of me The story of us i all i want to keep in me as deep With every passing day without it just makes harder to stay So here i am just waiting for you to turn around and have a look too We were once best friends to true and now a strangers in a queue I see you walking just by me and people staring right through me Life is like a steps just climbing through with days and nights in too Smile and sorrows are part of us too All i wish to end up being with you. - Nitish

Today am gonna write down a story A story maybe that everyone out there can imagine A story am gonna tell you the way i can be next to you It all began in that old fashion way way back there It was just like a flash of black and white TV world A small boy being born in a small town in a small family So it all began the day he played his first foot on the ground Like every parent they were happy to see him walking Like everybody out there i know it's a way boring story So here how it flew all along after years passed by with tragedy in his life He had multiple heartbreaks like every common guy out there He just looked at every face with a hope to find love in them He got betrayed he got played but all he had was a hope in him The journey just began when he saw a girl right at his workplace A ray of hope and wish just before he was gonna fall apart So he just saw her everyday while she walked a distance away He just smiled like a fool while she never looked at him to...

Here i am just out in search of peace Just writing down one another piece Story told us always what it used to say We believe things just way we see I been drowning way far from being saving I been trying harder to escape this thing My lines just get complicated when they used to be No one ever saw what was coming in me I sae those eyes all around me to be I looked straight in every eye while walking down to free Every person out there want a piece of peace for their soul We rush in day in and out just till day ends as night While you thought you known me all I just had a smile to make that fall I learned up while i was left alone unlike you I learned been the one i always wanted to Those every eye just judging me I sit down there just searching you -Nitish

Its been a while i have grow up a little thats what people keep in calling It all began with about 24years years ago when i just stepped in as a kid I was just 5 when i walked into that school with pretty scarey teachers I never knew time would slip one day and  bring me here now I was just 6 when i saw my younger brother in hospital to be I was just 10 when i saw him walking into his first school day be Life was pretty simple and days were just been awesome back there than Than life just took a flip and i turned down to 16 I never knew that it was just happening all to everyone around me I lost my idol my best friend forever in life to be I just lost a touch of thr greatest person my dad paased to be Time went little slow and hard on me back than where days felt like years to me I turned myself all down from that one man who was the hope for little man of me I saw every little part of world trembling around me while i was never prepared for it be So i went out and st...

I been close to death almost, I been close to loosing at most I been feared i have been burned down to my worst I been at those places where every one fears to be once I took my stand holding every pain in me I still do regret things i did maybe which were mistakes of me Looking at every eye i have learned to read inside them to be Looking at them i have learned what they dream always to be There is a lot in every one what they are potential to be Hope, faith and love makes at last all of us a human to be Looking right at that sky it resembles a symbol of hope to be As after every dark night there is a brighter day following it be It's the love that made us what we care and cherish in life one to be It's the faith in each other makes us walk the distances with strangers to be Every vow we make every stand we take defines our role in this Every time we look at that end it's a new beginning in be Holding on to ourselves we learned to face fears of eternity It...

I am writing it down just pulling all in me out now My nights been going sleepless with just too many thoughts I keep wishing it to end the way i picture it always I keep thinking of you with a hope you might turn one day My feelings go high every time i just have a look at you I just can't say it on your face because i fear loosing you Maybe someday i would hold on guts to express it to you But it just goes as a nightmare with the memory of denied by you I know i have been wrong every time and been now great as you But all i know is i wanna hold on to your smile because it keeps me believe You never know how it feels to have a sight of you You would never know easily as you don't want to hold on for me too As i made my vow the day i first told i always felt for you I do remember those words of denial running straight through me too I can't always be the one you been seeing me as true I have failed multiple times on you but never lost hope on you I learned ...